Peace is necessary

I opened a huge box of picture frames over the weekend. They were a gift (sort of) from my uncle, who was in the process of getting rid of stuff. They were frames my grandfather's sister had once owned. There were two pictures of her that I think we will hang in the house. Something of a tie.

On top of the box was a little tiny rifle gun. I gave it to Daniel. Who promptly stuck it in his mouth and pretended it was a trumpet and ran around my house playing it at the top of his lungs. Oh I love that kid.

He asked me this week "what do you call yourself?" well it depends on the day I guess.

Aaron is huge! He can roll and soon he will be talking and it is just gonna get loud!

Ok?

Buried in this sea of selfish desires and impurities. I hear Him call and I want to listen, I want to trust again. I just refuse. I find myself so angry, with so many questions and I hurt. Mostly I hurt.

For the LORD your God has arrived to live among you. He is a mighty savior. He will rejoice over you with great gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will exalt over you by singing a happy song."

I desire the truth of this, I want my fears calmed. I want to once again to hear His song over me.

I just want to be ok....

Pizza helper

Nothing makes me happier then this kid!

safe

Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. Psalm 73:25

I have tried to run and yet i still feel HIM I hear His voice and sense HIS presence all around me.  I am worthless and useless and yet He desires. 

¹⁵The LORD hath taken away thy judgments, he hath cast out thine enemy: the king of Israel, even the LORD, is in the midst of thee: thou shalt not see evil any more.

   ¹⁶In that day it shall be said to Jerusalem, Fear thou not: and to Zion, Let not thine hands be slack.

   ¹⁷The LORD thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing.

Haiti

I am so much more aware of my failure and incompetency today. Thank goodness God uses the foolish things right? I am going to Haiti on Sunday I am so scared and so excited!

AGHH!!!!!!!!!!

SO things are on hold didn't go feeling even more  incompetent.

Ain't gonna find, no place to hide, but in You my God!

I am enjoying this place so much today. I wonder how I will ever leave the complacency.

Oh how I love these kids. I miss them. I wish i was talented.  

TROUBLE WON'T GO

Timothy Floyd Thornton, Aaron Strumpel, Robin Pasley

Trouble won't go, peace won't stay 

Oceans roar, levees break

Trouble won't go, peace won't stay

Bridges fall, earth gives way

Ain't no refuge, but You my God

Ain't no safe place, but in Your arms

I'm gonna be still

Trouble won't go, peace won't stay

Land mines wait where children play

Trouble won't go, peace won't stay

In this old world, no safe place

Ain't gonna find, no place to hide, but in You my God!

Wake up, God, move yourself,

Today has been an interesting day so I figured I needed to remember the good.

I love when...
Noodle says he's mine.
My friends call me Bethy or Amanada calls me Any.
Noodle thinks he knows how to do some thing.
Ra tells me her stories that have no point.
Bacon talks about balls.
The brother stands next to me and stands as tall as he can. Yes he is quite a bit taller then me.
Sis tells me how to take care of her babies.
Noodle mimics what I say esp the tone. I have taken to screaming things or saying things like a crazy person when he is around.
I get a day off to drink tea and hang out with the buddies.
I get a day off to drink tea and be alone.
The boys are at my house.
I actually have time to throw dinner parties.