Last night I cried, I screamed at HIM, but only in my head. Four months and I still can't breathe, I still hear those songs and become inconsolable.
I want to be held, I want it to mean something, I want to throw it all away. I need someone else to pick up the pieces. There is no one else.
Spoke to a friend today and was again reminded that HE provides, and HE has, I know this without doubt. But the tears fall, the breath wont come, and I still feel like I am losing my mind.
2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Hebrews 10:35-36 So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.”
Zephaniah 3:14-15
Sing, O daughter of Zion!
Shout, O Israel!
Be glad and rejoice with all your heart,
O daughter of Jerusalem!
15 The LORD has taken away your judgments,
He has cast out your enemy.
The King of Israel, the LORD, is in your midst;
You shall see disaster no more.
Knowing HE is my midst helps. I will continue to grieve, I will let the tears fall, and I hope the breath continues to come. Knowing all things work together for good.
I want to be held, I want it to mean something, I want to throw it all away. I need someone else to pick up the pieces. There is no one else.
Spoke to a friend today and was again reminded that HE provides, and HE has, I know this without doubt. But the tears fall, the breath wont come, and I still feel like I am losing my mind.
2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Hebrews 10:35-36 So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.”
Zephaniah 3:14-15
Sing, O daughter of Zion!
Shout, O Israel!
Be glad and rejoice with all your heart,
O daughter of Jerusalem!
15 The LORD has taken away your judgments,
He has cast out your enemy.
The King of Israel, the LORD, is in your midst;
You shall see disaster no more.
Knowing HE is my midst helps. I will continue to grieve, I will let the tears fall, and I hope the breath continues to come. Knowing all things work together for good.
Wasting your time...get on with life's challenges. Wear yourself out with physical activity. Think about someone else's problem(s). Read an absolute useless book that will entertain you--Twilight Series. Bake something yummy at a relative's house. Go to the Apple Store, examine the iPad. Find out when they expect the newer iPad to be available and get your name on the "to purchase" list. Look for work in unexpected places--library, video store, grocery store, ski lodge, large corporation personnel offices, other unusual locations. Remember dressing up is important--first impressions count. Make your own good luck. Remember, success is the best revenge.
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